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Got to catch myself before I gain back all the weight

Sunday, April 2nd, 2017

Update – November 4, 2017
I did manage to loose 30 pounds between April, 2017, and the beginning of September, 2017.  I went away for a week, and gained about 5 pounds. I was happy that I lost that 5 pound gain by the end of September.  Unfortunately,  I gained about 11 pounds from the beginning of October to today.   I must immediately stop this gain by returning to my successful weight loss behaviors.   My goal is to loose 90 pounds by Labor Day (September 4, 2018).

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As readers of this blog know, my weight is like a yo-yo. I loose significant weight, gain it back (usually with additional weight over and above what I just lost), loose again, gain again, etc. I had lost 53 pounds between March, and December 2015. A few weeks before Christmas 2015, I started cheating again with desserts, snacks, sweets, basically any food that results in weight gain. I told myself it would just be for the holidays; however, we have now passed two Ides of March, a Labor Day, a Halloween, celebrated two year changes, and I have not stopped. Result, I have gained 76 pounds since this latest eating splurge commenced. Totally unacceptable behavior that I regained all of the 53 pounds I managed to loose over a 10 month period in 2015 plus a 23 pound bonus.

    Starting Sunday, April 2, 2017, I am returning to my prior successful weight loss behavior – no desserts, no in between meals snacks, no snacks at movies, and only an apple (or other item with similar calorie amount) when I get home at night. Using this strategy, I did loose 165 pounds over a two year period (2009 – 2011). Unfortunately, I gained 120 pounds of that weight back, then lost 53, and now my recent 76 pound gain. I still weigh 22 pounds less than my all time high on November 29, 2009, but still weigh 143 pounds more than my 2011 lowest weight.

    I have also rediscovered that I can not suspend my successful weight loss practices for any period of time. All my adult weight gains have started with a temporary eating change for the holidays, vacation, etc. I thought that a short duration eating splurge wouldn’t hurt too much; however, and this is a big however, all those planned temporary for a few days to a few weeks (holiday season, vacation) eating splurges actually lasted for months / years with associated significant weight gains. I must follow my good weight control practices without deviation. If I deviate with good intentions for a short duration, my history demonstrates that short term deviations usually extend way beyond the intended end date, and I have gained significant weight before I finally wise up / get back on track.

    Starting today, I will focus on my weight loss again. I will not be satisfied until I equal, or am below my 2011 lowest weight which was achieved at the end of my 165 pounds loss. I need to loose a minimum of 143 pounds to achieve my goal. It took me 5+ years to gain the 143 pounds; however, my goal is to loose a minimum of 143 pounds within 2 years.  I did loose 165 pounds over a 2 year period in the past, now the essential question is do I have the motivation / focus to accomplish this formidable task again.

    Laggies – 4 stars

    Friday, November 7th, 2014

    Laggies is very good.  I am not target audience, but movie was enjoyable & interesting, humorous, quality performances.

    Got to get my weight back under control quickly!!

    Monday, August 4th, 2014

    In 2010 / 2011, I successfully lost 165 pounds which exceeded my goal of loosing 150 pounds.  For about 8 months or so, I remained in control at my new, trimmer weight.  I felt good, looked good, and was more active than before loosing the weight. 

    For reasons still unknown to me, I totally lost focus, and control of my weight in the latter half of 2012, and all of 2013.  Although I stopped the major weight gain in 2014, I have not experienced any significant weight loss in 2014; I am like a yo-yo, loose 5 pounds, gain the 5 pounds back, and then repeat. Bottom line is – since the summer of 2013, I have weighed between 80 and 100 pounds more than I did in August 2011 when I completed my successful 165 pound loss.

    I am glad I have finally “seen the light”, and am determined to shred all the weight I gained back.  Every morning at weigh-in, I give myself the metaphorical kick in the butt exasperated that I allowed myself to gain back all that weight.  I am ecstatic that I regained my weight focus before I reattached all 165 pounds back to my body; however, I am very unhappy that I allowed myself to gain back as much weight as I did.

    My lack of weight loss posts demonstrates my lack of recent weight loss successes

    Friday, February 14th, 2014

    My lack of posts concerning my never-ending battle with my waist line is certainly indicative of my current loosing the battle, or at best stalemate status.  Over a two year period, I did loose 165 pounds without surgery, or any medications; I had the focus on my weight loss.  Over the next two years, I regained a bit over half of that weight back; I lost my focus. On February 14, 2014, I am very disappointed to say I weigh a whopping 92 pounds more than I did on January 1, 2012.

    I am now shedding five, ten pounds, then gaining it back, classic yo-yo pattern.  Starting today, I will return to my successful weight loss strategy / behaviors with a goal of loosing at least 70 pounds by the end of 2014, and the remainder before summer 2015..  A difficult goal to be sure, but certainly achievable since I have lost more than that amount in the same time frame previously.

    I successfully lost the 165 pounds over the two year period by eliminating desserts, popcorn / candy at movies, and limiting my evening intake to an apple, or similar caloric item.  I still ordered what I wanted from the menu at my favorite restaurants for my combined lunch / dinner (minus the dessert), and really did not feel deprived since I was eating my favorite foods.

    Got to get my weight under control again.

    Friday, August 23rd, 2013

    My weight loss progress this summer has been as erratic as the Boston weather has been most of 2013. I loose a few pounds, gain it back along with a few extra pounds, and then repeat the cycle again, and again. 

    Horror of Horrors, I gained 76 pounds since January 1, 2012

    Monday, July 1st, 2013

    July 1 snuck up on me, and arrived unfortunately with my weighing 76 pounds more than I did on Jan 1, 2012 with 14 of those pounds added since Jan 1, 2013.  I have reached a critical juncture in my weight related life.  Unless I immediately get my act together, and regain the weight focus I demonstrated in 2010 / 2011, I will (within a few years) have gained back all 165 pounds I worked so hard to loose over a 2 year period.  I will not let that happen.

    Hard to believe I retired 9 years ago today.

    Sunday, June 30th, 2013

    Tempus certainly does fugit. It is hard to believe I retired on June 30, 2004, 9 years ago today.  It seems more like 9 months rather than 9 years.

    Still like a yo-yo with my weight reduction, got to get my act together.

    Monday, June 24th, 2013

    Been like a yo-yo since my May 28 post.  I lost 7 pounds, but gained it back with a one pound bonus.  Today I weigh 75 pounds more than I did on New Years Eve 2011.  I am still 90 pounds lighter than my all-time high; however, I do not like my current weight trends at all. 

    I will focus again on my weight starting today.  My goal is to loose as much of this newly gained 75 pounds as I can by the end of this year, and continue loosing the remainder in early 2014.  I will not be happy with my weight until I weigh at least 1 pound less than I did on New Years Eve 2011.

    Weigh 74 pounds more than I did the end of 2011 – a major weight refocus is in order

    Tuesday, May 28th, 2013

    On New Year’s Eve 2011 / New Year’s Day 2012, I weighed 165 pounds less than I did on November 29, 2009, the date I regrettably weighed the highest in my life.  My goal was to loose 150 pounds, I thought I had a 15 pound cushion since I lost 165 pounds.  During 2012, I gained 62 pounds, quite a bit more than my “cushion”.  Why I allowed myself to go so far astray I will never fully understand although I certainly know how I did it – too many desserts, munchies, evening snacks, popcorn at movies etc.  If it was a treat, I loved it, and the more the merrier.  If one treat was good, multiple treats were even better.

    In 2013, I lost a few pounds, then gained a few pounds I was like a yo-yo with my weight.   On May 28, 2013, I weighed 12 pounds more that I did the end of 2012, a total gain of 74 pounds since then end of 2011.  Enough is enough as they say; I have to regain control of my weight, and immediately return to my proven (for me) weight loss strategies of no desserts, no popcorn etc. at movies, no in-between meal snacks, and limit my evening sustenance to an apple, or similar caloric content munchie. I will still maintain my practice of ordering whatever I want from the restaurant menu for my main meal minus the dessert of course. I eat just about all my main meals out except breakfast. I did manage to loose 165 pounds over a 2 year period while following this strategy.

    My goal is to loose 75 pounds by the end of 2013 (the 74 I gained since the end of 2011 + 1).  I realize this is a lofty goal, some would say unrealistic.  I  will focus again on my weight like I did in 2010 / 2011.  I am determined to come as close as I can to obtaining this goal.  If I miss the goal by a few pounds, I will be disappointed, but also ecstatic that I did loose most of the weight I gained back.  However, I am still setting, and striving to attain the goal of loosing all the “gained backed” weight + 1 by the end of 2013.

    I am at a major crossroads on my weight.  I will either loose the desired 75 pounds, or continue out-of-control ultimately gaining back all 165 pounds I lost plus probably a 20 to 25 pound additional bonus based on prior weight gains.  I am trying my best to ensure it is the former scenario, not the latter.

    My goal on this 14th anniversary of the start of my 70 pound weight loss in 1999 is to repeat the loss again in 2013

    Friday, February 1st, 2013

    Between November 29, 2009, and January 1, 2012, I lost 165 pounds, 15 more than my 150 pounds goal. I promised myself that I would immediately initiate weight loss mode when / if I gained back 15 pounds, and would not allow myself to fall below 150 pounds lost.  Unfortunately, I ignored my promise, and fell hard below my 150 pounds loss threshold.  Between January 1, 2012, and February 1, 2013, I managed to gain 70 pounds. I am totally disappointed in myself for allowing this 70 pounds weight gain, and not initiating weight loss mode when I gained back 15 pounds.

    During this 13 months of gaining 70 pounds, I lost focus,  got way too familiar with desserts / popcorn at movies, and my sweet tooth was insatiable. I did not find a candy that was anything but scrumptious, and ditto for desserts. I know what I have to do, I just accomplished it several years ago to loose 165 pounds. No more desserts, popcorn, or candy unless I am celebrating an event, and the lapses will be few, and far between.

    On February 1, 1999, I started a 28 week weight loss that resulted in my shedding 70 pounds. The 1999 loss ended while on vacation the end of August that year. On February 1, 1999, I weighed approximately 40 pounds more than today, February 1, 2013. I may not be able to replicate the 70 pound loss by August, 2013 due to a lower starting weight, and the commensurate lower weekly loss rate. I do want to loose a minimum of 55 pounds in the same 28 week timespan that I lost 70 pounds in 1999, and loose an additional 16 pounds by New Year’s 2014 for a total loss of 71 pounds (70 pounds gained + 1). My goal is to weigh 71 pounds less on January 1, 2014 than I do on February 1, 2013.

    I am determined I will loose the 70 pounds I gained back + 1 pound, and revert back to weight loss mode when / if I gain back 10 pounds, not 70.

    Although disappointed, I have learned a lesson. It is easy for me to revert back to old eating behaviors, and I take too long to refocus on weight loss after allowing my self to gain back too much of the weight I worked hard to loose.